So that was my the first audition, with those huge lights, on one of the biggest stages in the Southern Hemisphere! Just seeing all these people that were trained and everything, doing amazing things and I was just like, 'OK, well I just gotta do what I gotta do, and hope for the best'. There wasn't any b-girls there. I was like dressed up in an Adidas tracksuit with my cap, looking like a dude, real B-boy attitude.
When they called out my name I was crapping my pants. There was a lot more pressure as well, 'cause my brother and my ex-partner Nikki was there as well. You really wanna perform to your brother and make him proud, as well as doing yourself proud, and at the same time impress the judges, so I had three things going on in my head. I went up, I did my routine. Unfortunately I didn't get a ticket, I had to come back and do choreography. That was cool, cause I was a bit disappointed with my solo, I didn't really rip it as much as I wanted to… but then I got the ticket – yeah!!!!
I didn't think I was gonna get into Top 20. I thought my brother was gonna get in. I was confident in myself, I was happy in what I could bring to the table, but there were amazing dancers at Top 100 week. I was 50/50 - there were only two Hip Hop girls , so I was like, maybe, maybe not… but when I got in – tears of joy, again! It's quite heartfelt, when you get the results and you're finally there, it's like, 'Oh wow, what a relief!'
Did I feel intimidated by the other dancers? Oh yeah! Yeah, for sure. They picked up chorey, they were amazing. I didn't compare myself because they were completely different. They were trained, I was like a b-girl who tried to do all the different styles as best as I could. I didn't know what I was capable of.
When you put your mind to something and you really want it, the results do happen. It totally depends on where you're coming from. If you want something, you've gotta put your focus on it 100% - even more. If you let negativity come into your head and that's when it creates problems for yourself. That's part of the reason I overcame that feeling of not being able to learn properly. I let it go. I just go, ‘OK, this is gonna be great. I'm gonna have fun with this, and whatever happens, happens'. I was hungry for it, and my intentions was I really wanted to learn these styles, because I've never come across them. That was my intention for this competition.
I think my popularity kind of sinked in when I got to Top Six. So fairly late! People were telling me, ‘Oh man, you got so many fans', but you don't know because people can change their minds. I seriously thought I'd be in the bottom three when I messed up with my House, but then I did a Contemporary piece, and I guess I did redeem myself from that. It's hard when you've done something bad then you feel disappointed in yourself. You've gotta switch to another head thing do your best in this next one. There's a lotta things happening, so I was happy that I did what I did for the Contemporary.
What do people like about me? I'm true to myself. Whatever's going on in the situation, I let people know how hard it is. I think they love that I'm striving and that I am determined to get everything right. Maybe because of my personality – because I'm cheeky! And my smile as well – I think people love how I smile on the stage. There's lots of things, I'm down-to-earth. I think when they see me as a b-girl, they were like, ‘I don't know, I don't know what she's gonna be like', but when people saw me do the Samba, that's when they're like, ‘Woooaahhh!' I think the whole transformation was a jerker for them - a switch thing, ‘Wow, she's got heels, she's hot!' That was a turning point for me.
After this, I'm ready to take on whatever happens. I still wanna be in the TV entertainment, wanna act, wanna do lots of things. There's lots of avenues I want to take on. I sing a little bit and I rap a little bit. What I've learnt is that you've gotta take risks in life to create opportunities for yourself. That's my saying. I really like that. Does that make sense?
Interview by Georgia Clark



